Post by gatogirl919 on Apr 28, 2011 23:44:47 GMT -5
So I took the challenge. And I finished it but umm....it's not what anyone expects. I can tell you that now. It's not as happy as it was supposed to be and I apologize but.....it won't work with what I put in the diary. And yes it's all real, just exaggerated. (except the amusement park bit....)These things are the various reasons I wasn't here. And I thank everyone for their patience with me. Especially Magna and Shroud. But the only thing I ask is for people not to say much because i fixed all this crap and now everything's fine and dandy. Well mostly. So yeah....Enjoy
I Read Your Diary/The Diary of You and I
One day Tim was visiting his friend Millie at her house. They were both digidestined and he cared about her very much. Perhaps more than he should, but who was supposed to be the judge of that? He wasn't sure any more. Besides, he already had a girlfriend although things weren't going so well.
On that fateful day he walked into her bedroom and set his book-bag down on the ground. Everything was normal. Millie was fixing a bowl of chips downstairs since there was never much else to eat at her place. Tim was about to go downstairs to help her bring up the drinks for their other friends who were coming to join their study session. All of a sudden he spied the notebook Topaz, another one of their digidestined friends, had given Millie on her 16th birthday.
Her new story must be in here, he thought to himself.
It was wide open and the white pages seemed to call out to him. He walked over and started to read it.
Dear Diary,
It's official. I love Tim. I really do. Quite pathetic the amount of time it took me to figure this out. After everything we've been through. And all the fun things we've done like the amusement park and the D.C. field-trip.....Every moment i spend with him makes me happy. Happier than I've been in...in what feels like forever.
He wanted to stop there. But for some reason he kept going. Maybe it was the shock that Millie had a diary. It wasn't like her. Even Magna thought so.
Dear Diary,
Today I saw Tim and his girlfriend get into a fight. Nothing new. Their chemistry was long gone in my opinion but I'm not sure they see it.....Anyways I almost punched her lights out today after she yelled at him.....if it weren't for Az-chan's look and Magna's distraction hug I think I would've been expelled.
He remembered. It was just the other day. His girlfriend had yelled at him but it wasn't that serious. Although, for some reason, it did get quite heated. He couldn't remember why. But for some reason....he was touched as much as concerned that Millie wanted to do that. She was normally peaceful with the occasional sarcastic remark slipping out here and there. But that was her. And he loved her for it. Love? He shook his head as he flipped back a number of pages.
Dear Diary,
Today we went to the amusement park. It was a lot of fun. I went around with my group (Tim, Topaz, Shroud, and Magna) which we decided on with lots. I was quite happy. The happiest thing of all....
was when Tim and I were leaning on each other after the roller coaster that made us all want to hurl. Don't know what we were thinking. "Let's go ride the big roller coaster that scares the crap out of me right after we just had an eating contest" We really are special. I love minna-san. But I wonder why I was so happy about Tim....I mean I'm in love with Dimi after all....
Dear Diary,
I kissed Dimi. He hugged me. We're gonna be official in a few days. I'm beyond elated. But then again...
Tim was shocked yet again. He didn't know what to do. Other than laugh. It's true. That moment made him happy too. He also didn't know why they rode the roller coaster after the food eating contest. Whoever finished their noodles first won. Magna managed to win with Tim, Millie, and Shroud being a close second. Topaz threw in the towel after a little while which is probably why she was the only one who came off the roller coaster without feeling like dying. But leaning on Millie...her body warm.....really warm. He could have sworn she had a fever but he was more preoccupied with trying not to throw up. But the thing he was shocked about her kissing that kid. The forum's nickname for him after what had happened to Millie.
But I wonder if that's what.....he pondered as he flipped forward through the diary.
Dear Diary,
It's over. It's all over. So many things happened. And for it to end like that....I don't think I can ever speak to him again. The a-hole has really messed me up and I feel so.....alone. Not anyone or anything can cheer me up. Well not for long. The forum's been doing a pretty good job but....how long will that last? I feel like everyone's leaving and we're all upset. I don't understand. I just don't....I don't know. I know they're concerned about me but....I don't know. I just can't open up anymore. I'm so stupid...and his remarks to her! Oh those stupid-
Liar. Liar. Liar, liar, liar. But then again I'm a backstabber. To two people not one.
Dear Diary,
I just can't do it. I can't do it anymore. But I have to. I have to be happy. Appear happy. I can't let anyone know...anyone else know how sad I am. How alone....
At this point, Tim almost slammed the diary shut. Almost. He finally understood though. Understood that he never understood Millie's true feelings. Not like he thought. He thought he knew her well enough to know....know when she was feeling this way. Especially knowing how easily depressed she got. "I'll be there for you" echoed over and over in his mind. That's what he promised her. But he hadn't. While he was thinking, the fan in Millie's room had flipped the pages to something more recent.
Dear Diary,
Tim made the suggestion that I find someone else. So I did. I looked inside my heart. Or what's left anyways. I found my answer. A happy answer. This one said yes. I'm happier than I've been in a while. But thanks to "that kid" I can't show it. Not anymore....
Dear Diary,
My special someone broke up with me today. He took me over to the corner of the Japanese room.....Thank God I didn't punch him. Thank God for letting me feel fine. Just for the first five minutes. Thank God for Wendy....one of the only reasons I got through the period. The only thing I don't thank God for was us only lasting a day.....
Now he slammed the diary shut and sat down on the bed. His head between his hands trying to figure out how he was supposed to feel about all of this. But he couldn't get past his main emotion: shame. He was ashamed at looking at his best friend's diary without her permission. All he knew now is....he couldn't talk to her in the state he was in. He got his book-bag, and walked downstairs.
"Millie.......I have to go do something. I'm sorry I can't stay....Magna will be here soon to help you with the sodas." he said trying to make his voice sound normal. Millie looked up at him with a smile.
"Aww.....But Magna will drink all the soda and-" But she didn't get to finish. Tim walked out the door and Millie blinked worriedly after him. She had no clue what happened. And for once she didn't understand him....
It was the same for next three days. Millie had no idea what was wrong. Neither did any of the other forum members. It was eating away at her. She tried talking to him, calling him but nothing worked. She even made him cookies. But Tim didn't say anything. Not a word. It was almost like the light had gone out of his eyes. Almost.
Meanwhile, Tim was sorting through all the info. Including his own feelings. He also analyzed Millie secretly, trying to figure out if she was being truthful. If she was actually happy or still faking it. But he couldn't tell. And that made him all the more quiet.
But the big think no one knew...was that Millie cried. One night alone in her room she broke down. And all because the man she loved, and one of her closest friends, would no longer talk to her.
A few weeks after that fateful day, the forum had had enough. They were getting Tim to talk to them again. And they were getting Millie to smile. Something she had stopped doing about the same amount of time.
Shroud stood up first.
"Well, it's time for practice. Come on Tom." He dragged Tom out of the room faster than Millie could lift her hand to wave goodbye. Madame Pika was next.
"Oh....look at the time. Art club has already started. Let's go guys. You promised to come." Everyone ran out of the room and shut the door. Shroud snuck back from down the hall and locked the door. Millie stood up and yelled:
"HEY! It's Thursday! Club's on TUESDAY! You little-" but it was too late. Tim and Millie's eyes met with the mutual thought of :We've been setup. Tim sighed and sat down in a chair. Millie sat down across from him and looked him directly in the eyes. Tim sighed deeply.
"Umm.....well....this is kind awkward." he feigned a smile.
Millie looked and him and then sighed. The next thing she did surprised Tim: he received a hug.
"Why....why won't you talk to me Tim-chan?" She murmured trying to keep her voice from wavering. She didn't want to cry in front of him. Ever. She had won.
"Well...don't get angry but umm....I kinda sorta....read your diary the other day." he said.
She immediately let him go and stood up.
"YOU WHAT?!"
"Well it wasn't all my fault. I mistook it for your notebook."
"So....you go through all my notebooks without my permission now, do you?" she was angry. And a broom was in reach since they had just finished cleaning the classroom."
"But it was just lying there! Wide open too. Beckoning for someone to read it. And that someone...just happened to be me. I'm sorry Millie. I really am." he looked down sadly.
Millie didn't say anything for a while.
"How much?"
"What?" Tim was confused
"How much did you read Tim?"
He was silent.
"HOW MUCH DID YOU READ TIM" she screamed.
Her voice was failing and the tears rolled down her eyes. He looked down. He couldn't take this.
"I saw the part about the kid. And the second kid. And um......the part about me."
He forced himself to look up at her tear-stained face. Millie wanted to run so badly. It was the third time. The third time this year she had been hurt by the person she loved the most. She didn't know what to do. He didn't know what to do. A dinosaur digimon with a white and pink digimon on it's back leaped through the open window.
"The diary was my fault. I left it out for him to see. Someone needed too." the white and pink digimon said.
"TERRLORMON?! IT WAS YOU!!!" Millie yelled. She didn't know why she was so surprised.
"Millie....forgive me. but someone needed to read it. To understand you. You can't play therapist for everyone else all the time. You've got to trust somebody....and I thought why not the man you loved. The digidestined of trust?" Terrlormon said solemnly.
It was one of the few times she was serious.
"Tim.....I think you know what you have to do. And you'd better do it now before she beats you with that broom." the dinosaur digimon said. His name was Arnamon, Tim's digimon. Tim blinked.
Then stood up and hugged Millie. She felt herself getting hot.
"Millie, I love you too. I have for a while now. I'm just sorry I didn't say so sooner." Millie was taken aback by his comment.
"Tim I-" but she didn’t get to finish because Tim kissed her.
"I know I don't fully understand what happened. And maybe I don't fully understand you yet but....I want to. I want to try. I want to be there for you. And I'm sorry if all of this makes you.....uncomfortable."
He held her close to his chest. She closed her eyes and cried some more. But not out of sadness. After a little while she stopped and hugged him back.
"I love you too. And I still do trust you more than anyone. Even with this. Thank you Tim......I will need some time to open up again...but you'll be a big help. Bigger than those two were." He laughed and stroked her hair.
Millie looked up worriedly for a second.
"Wait a sec....what about your girl?" she asked. Tim smiled.
"Wondered when you were gonna ask. I broke up with her 3 days ago. Now you won't have to worry about being expelled." he said. She laughed and hugged him again.
"Maybe it's not so bad that you read it. But promise not to tell, 'kay?" she said with a smile. Oh and....
Nice picture of me. She held up his phone. He looked surprised.
"Hey! When did you....give it back! Millie!" Tim said with an embarrassed look on his face.
Millie slid her digivolution card through her D-Power and climbed onto Lady Gargomon.
"You'll have to catch me!" she called out as they escaped through the window.
I Read Your Diary/The Diary of You and I
One day Tim was visiting his friend Millie at her house. They were both digidestined and he cared about her very much. Perhaps more than he should, but who was supposed to be the judge of that? He wasn't sure any more. Besides, he already had a girlfriend although things weren't going so well.
On that fateful day he walked into her bedroom and set his book-bag down on the ground. Everything was normal. Millie was fixing a bowl of chips downstairs since there was never much else to eat at her place. Tim was about to go downstairs to help her bring up the drinks for their other friends who were coming to join their study session. All of a sudden he spied the notebook Topaz, another one of their digidestined friends, had given Millie on her 16th birthday.
Her new story must be in here, he thought to himself.
It was wide open and the white pages seemed to call out to him. He walked over and started to read it.
Dear Diary,
It's official. I love Tim. I really do. Quite pathetic the amount of time it took me to figure this out. After everything we've been through. And all the fun things we've done like the amusement park and the D.C. field-trip.....Every moment i spend with him makes me happy. Happier than I've been in...in what feels like forever.
He wanted to stop there. But for some reason he kept going. Maybe it was the shock that Millie had a diary. It wasn't like her. Even Magna thought so.
Dear Diary,
Today I saw Tim and his girlfriend get into a fight. Nothing new. Their chemistry was long gone in my opinion but I'm not sure they see it.....Anyways I almost punched her lights out today after she yelled at him.....if it weren't for Az-chan's look and Magna's distraction hug I think I would've been expelled.
He remembered. It was just the other day. His girlfriend had yelled at him but it wasn't that serious. Although, for some reason, it did get quite heated. He couldn't remember why. But for some reason....he was touched as much as concerned that Millie wanted to do that. She was normally peaceful with the occasional sarcastic remark slipping out here and there. But that was her. And he loved her for it. Love? He shook his head as he flipped back a number of pages.
Dear Diary,
Today we went to the amusement park. It was a lot of fun. I went around with my group (Tim, Topaz, Shroud, and Magna) which we decided on with lots. I was quite happy. The happiest thing of all....
was when Tim and I were leaning on each other after the roller coaster that made us all want to hurl. Don't know what we were thinking. "Let's go ride the big roller coaster that scares the crap out of me right after we just had an eating contest" We really are special. I love minna-san. But I wonder why I was so happy about Tim....I mean I'm in love with Dimi after all....
Dear Diary,
I kissed Dimi. He hugged me. We're gonna be official in a few days. I'm beyond elated. But then again...
Tim was shocked yet again. He didn't know what to do. Other than laugh. It's true. That moment made him happy too. He also didn't know why they rode the roller coaster after the food eating contest. Whoever finished their noodles first won. Magna managed to win with Tim, Millie, and Shroud being a close second. Topaz threw in the towel after a little while which is probably why she was the only one who came off the roller coaster without feeling like dying. But leaning on Millie...her body warm.....really warm. He could have sworn she had a fever but he was more preoccupied with trying not to throw up. But the thing he was shocked about her kissing that kid. The forum's nickname for him after what had happened to Millie.
But I wonder if that's what.....he pondered as he flipped forward through the diary.
Dear Diary,
It's over. It's all over. So many things happened. And for it to end like that....I don't think I can ever speak to him again. The a-hole has really messed me up and I feel so.....alone. Not anyone or anything can cheer me up. Well not for long. The forum's been doing a pretty good job but....how long will that last? I feel like everyone's leaving and we're all upset. I don't understand. I just don't....I don't know. I know they're concerned about me but....I don't know. I just can't open up anymore. I'm so stupid...and his remarks to her! Oh those stupid-
Liar. Liar. Liar, liar, liar. But then again I'm a backstabber. To two people not one.
Dear Diary,
I just can't do it. I can't do it anymore. But I have to. I have to be happy. Appear happy. I can't let anyone know...anyone else know how sad I am. How alone....
At this point, Tim almost slammed the diary shut. Almost. He finally understood though. Understood that he never understood Millie's true feelings. Not like he thought. He thought he knew her well enough to know....know when she was feeling this way. Especially knowing how easily depressed she got. "I'll be there for you" echoed over and over in his mind. That's what he promised her. But he hadn't. While he was thinking, the fan in Millie's room had flipped the pages to something more recent.
Dear Diary,
Tim made the suggestion that I find someone else. So I did. I looked inside my heart. Or what's left anyways. I found my answer. A happy answer. This one said yes. I'm happier than I've been in a while. But thanks to "that kid" I can't show it. Not anymore....
Dear Diary,
My special someone broke up with me today. He took me over to the corner of the Japanese room.....Thank God I didn't punch him. Thank God for letting me feel fine. Just for the first five minutes. Thank God for Wendy....one of the only reasons I got through the period. The only thing I don't thank God for was us only lasting a day.....
Now he slammed the diary shut and sat down on the bed. His head between his hands trying to figure out how he was supposed to feel about all of this. But he couldn't get past his main emotion: shame. He was ashamed at looking at his best friend's diary without her permission. All he knew now is....he couldn't talk to her in the state he was in. He got his book-bag, and walked downstairs.
"Millie.......I have to go do something. I'm sorry I can't stay....Magna will be here soon to help you with the sodas." he said trying to make his voice sound normal. Millie looked up at him with a smile.
"Aww.....But Magna will drink all the soda and-" But she didn't get to finish. Tim walked out the door and Millie blinked worriedly after him. She had no clue what happened. And for once she didn't understand him....
It was the same for next three days. Millie had no idea what was wrong. Neither did any of the other forum members. It was eating away at her. She tried talking to him, calling him but nothing worked. She even made him cookies. But Tim didn't say anything. Not a word. It was almost like the light had gone out of his eyes. Almost.
Meanwhile, Tim was sorting through all the info. Including his own feelings. He also analyzed Millie secretly, trying to figure out if she was being truthful. If she was actually happy or still faking it. But he couldn't tell. And that made him all the more quiet.
But the big think no one knew...was that Millie cried. One night alone in her room she broke down. And all because the man she loved, and one of her closest friends, would no longer talk to her.
A few weeks after that fateful day, the forum had had enough. They were getting Tim to talk to them again. And they were getting Millie to smile. Something she had stopped doing about the same amount of time.
Shroud stood up first.
"Well, it's time for practice. Come on Tom." He dragged Tom out of the room faster than Millie could lift her hand to wave goodbye. Madame Pika was next.
"Oh....look at the time. Art club has already started. Let's go guys. You promised to come." Everyone ran out of the room and shut the door. Shroud snuck back from down the hall and locked the door. Millie stood up and yelled:
"HEY! It's Thursday! Club's on TUESDAY! You little-" but it was too late. Tim and Millie's eyes met with the mutual thought of :We've been setup. Tim sighed and sat down in a chair. Millie sat down across from him and looked him directly in the eyes. Tim sighed deeply.
"Umm.....well....this is kind awkward." he feigned a smile.
Millie looked and him and then sighed. The next thing she did surprised Tim: he received a hug.
"Why....why won't you talk to me Tim-chan?" She murmured trying to keep her voice from wavering. She didn't want to cry in front of him. Ever. She had won.
"Well...don't get angry but umm....I kinda sorta....read your diary the other day." he said.
She immediately let him go and stood up.
"YOU WHAT?!"
"Well it wasn't all my fault. I mistook it for your notebook."
"So....you go through all my notebooks without my permission now, do you?" she was angry. And a broom was in reach since they had just finished cleaning the classroom."
"But it was just lying there! Wide open too. Beckoning for someone to read it. And that someone...just happened to be me. I'm sorry Millie. I really am." he looked down sadly.
Millie didn't say anything for a while.
"How much?"
"What?" Tim was confused
"How much did you read Tim?"
He was silent.
"HOW MUCH DID YOU READ TIM" she screamed.
Her voice was failing and the tears rolled down her eyes. He looked down. He couldn't take this.
"I saw the part about the kid. And the second kid. And um......the part about me."
He forced himself to look up at her tear-stained face. Millie wanted to run so badly. It was the third time. The third time this year she had been hurt by the person she loved the most. She didn't know what to do. He didn't know what to do. A dinosaur digimon with a white and pink digimon on it's back leaped through the open window.
"The diary was my fault. I left it out for him to see. Someone needed too." the white and pink digimon said.
"TERRLORMON?! IT WAS YOU!!!" Millie yelled. She didn't know why she was so surprised.
"Millie....forgive me. but someone needed to read it. To understand you. You can't play therapist for everyone else all the time. You've got to trust somebody....and I thought why not the man you loved. The digidestined of trust?" Terrlormon said solemnly.
It was one of the few times she was serious.
"Tim.....I think you know what you have to do. And you'd better do it now before she beats you with that broom." the dinosaur digimon said. His name was Arnamon, Tim's digimon. Tim blinked.
Then stood up and hugged Millie. She felt herself getting hot.
"Millie, I love you too. I have for a while now. I'm just sorry I didn't say so sooner." Millie was taken aback by his comment.
"Tim I-" but she didn’t get to finish because Tim kissed her.
"I know I don't fully understand what happened. And maybe I don't fully understand you yet but....I want to. I want to try. I want to be there for you. And I'm sorry if all of this makes you.....uncomfortable."
He held her close to his chest. She closed her eyes and cried some more. But not out of sadness. After a little while she stopped and hugged him back.
"I love you too. And I still do trust you more than anyone. Even with this. Thank you Tim......I will need some time to open up again...but you'll be a big help. Bigger than those two were." He laughed and stroked her hair.
Millie looked up worriedly for a second.
"Wait a sec....what about your girl?" she asked. Tim smiled.
"Wondered when you were gonna ask. I broke up with her 3 days ago. Now you won't have to worry about being expelled." he said. She laughed and hugged him again.
"Maybe it's not so bad that you read it. But promise not to tell, 'kay?" she said with a smile. Oh and....
Nice picture of me. She held up his phone. He looked surprised.
"Hey! When did you....give it back! Millie!" Tim said with an embarrassed look on his face.
Millie slid her digivolution card through her D-Power and climbed onto Lady Gargomon.
"You'll have to catch me!" she called out as they escaped through the window.